Merry Christmas

First of all on a sad note, my grandma Beverly died last night. It was such a surprise as she seemed fine when I saw her at Thanksgiving. I was really glad I was able to see her one last time though.  She was such a sweet lady.  She had a tradition of giving us a Christmas ornament every year. Sometimes we got tired of all the decorations as gifts (selfish brats I know) but now when I see them I will think of her.  Love ya grandma give Allie a big hug and kiss from me.

As it is Christmas Eve I just wanted to share my testimony of the sweet little babe born so long ago.  It is hard to believe sometimes that a sweet baby was sent to Joseph and Mary to become the Savior of the world.  What man would be so selfless that he would give his life for all mankind? 

I am so glad that he did.  It wasn't until Allie died that I fully appreciated his love and sacrifice for us, for me.  I believed in all that I heard but I didn't know and understand the huge significance of his gift. That is what it is, a gift.  I love him for dying for me so that I may repent of my sins and be able to receive the greatest gift, the gift of eternal life.  I am so happy to know that my family will be with me always. I will get to be with my sweet daughter again and raise her and hold her and kiss her.  Life does not end with death. It does go on and only through our savior, Jesus Christ is that possible. So thank you to that sweet little baby who grew to be such a great man and example.  I love you. 

Merry Christmas to all of my friends and family. I love you and am greatful for the support you've given me over these past couple of very hard years.  Have a wonderful Christmas

yeah for aunt Kara

Kara came up to visit us. Finally!!  hee hee.  Yes I know there isn't much to do here in our little town of 1000 but we managed to have a little fun.  We even went to Twilight again.  Bite me Edward PLEASE!!!  The kids loved having her here and she even shocked me when I heard laughter down the hall and went to investigate and there was auntie Kara giving the little girls a bath!  I was shocked!!  We were glad you came and hope you get to visit us again soon.  Even if it is only to do your laundry!! Love ya sis.

We decorated our gingerbread house last night.  It is not an activity but an adventure.  A big, messy, fun, adventure.  Where the little girls think they inherited their own personal candy store and the big kids become expert decorators.  The house is not what you would call beautiful, four different people adding their own decorations to the beat of their own drum don't exactly mesh into a masterpiece. The beauty is the picture it creates as four little bodies are gathered around the same table getting along and having fun, taking part in a family tradition hopeful creating memories for a lifetime.  

Tanner got his tonsils removed today.  We had to be at the hospital by 7:00, his surgery was at 9:00 and he was done at 9:20.  They kept him for a couple hours for observation so he was outta there by 12:00.  The nurse said he should get the bravery of the year award because he did so good. I was so worried he was going to be a typical boy and can't stand the pain.  He is doing very well and has little to no pain hence the no crying probably.  Good job buddy-we are proud of you and love you very much! have fun eating popsicles and ice cream

Tanner's Tonsils

Allie

Happy Birthday Allie!  I am trying to be optimistic right now.  This is a day I dread more than any other day.  My sweet little daughter would be six years old today.  I wish I could see how big she is, what she looks like, know her favorites etc... so many things.  I won't say too much more because my emotions are getting the better of me and I can't see through blurry eyes.  I just miss the little girl with a smile on her face and laughter in her heart. I miss the little girl who could come back with a joke in an instant. Most of all I miss the little girl whose hands fit so snuggly in mine and whose hug could brighten up anyone's day.  I love you my little buttercup. We are going to watch the Three Amigos just for you today.  Happy Birthday sweetheart.